She made a nice beef roast today in the slow-cooker. With carrots, onions and potatoes. It smelled so good all day that I could hardly wait to dive into it! It was great !
I was in a lot of pain off and on all day. I thought that I had been really lucky with my chemo side effects until a couple of days ago. Today it felt like both of my knee caps had been broken. Then it felt as if each of my ribs were being broken and then put back together. I had a lot of tingling and numbness in my fingertips and toes...intermittent. My back felt like I had been standing for days. All of this was coming and going throughout the day. And, at one point, it felt as if someone had grabbed my left ear and was trying to rip it from my head. It hurt but it was more of a nuisance because it would hurt to a crescendo and then subside. I know now what people have told me about having flu symptoms and roller coaster moments from the chemo. I called my Dr. the other day to confirm an appt. for next week and then asked when my next chemo would be. She sounded kind of quiet and sympathetic (though I didn't divulge any problems) and said that the Dr. would always see me first before scheduling a chemo...just to make sure I was ready and able to have another session. I didn't realize what she meant at that time...but, I do now, ha.
Well, I guess I have a lot coming up as they treat my cancer. I am not afraid or worried...somewhat concerned, but I know that, in the end, that I will feel better. That I will have some relief and normalcy to look forward to.
I am still eternally grateful for my family and friends and clowns and the Church and the Lord.
I take one or two walks everyday to keep myself moving and to have some exercise so that I can remain strong. And, I try to visit friends every few days to keep a social pattern. And, of course, the internet keeps me connected.
Tomorrow is another day...another adventure...more chances to look for Light and Laughter and to look for ways to help others.
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