Experiencing Life

I was watching a documentary about a man that was dying. He was reading passages on dying. His niece was asking him how he felt about dying. I was thinking that you are never dying. Some people say they want to die with dignity...they speak of the art of dying or how dying is what happens to everyone at one point. But, when we think of Life we remember the experiences we have gone through; the emotions that we have reckoned with and the joy or devastating effects of these emotions; we can try to calculate the number of thoughts that have cascaded through our minds...we can ponder the insignificance of a single human being standing on a planet that is spinning hurriedly on its axis and, in turn, racing around the Sun at breakneck speed. The Sun whirls around in the Milky Way Galaxy circling what? The Galaxy dances through the Universe with other Galaxies with mind-boggling energy. How many other planets have insignificant life-forms...are they really that insignificant?
I entertained the Doctor and nurses and staff at my appointment today. I had the drain removed from neck. We laughed...he gave me a piece of paper--the Pathology Report of the biopsy I had endured this past Tuesday. Of all the sample tissue they removed, none showed any metastatic tumor. The lymph node tissues were Benign.
My  initial diagnosis of advanced cancer gave me pause but did not scare me. I was worried for my loved ones and friends. I enjoy Life. Dying is part of living. But it is living nonetheless. I have emotions to rock me.I have experiences still to collect and sort. I have thoughts to amuse and disturb me. I have living to do !
I called my Pastor with the news. He wondered if I was dancing...no, I said, for the first time I am scared. The Lord's Healing and all of the Prayers are bearing fruit. Satan the Devil has got to be very, very mad. I am afraid to step outside for fear that a demented senior citizen cruising at 25 miles an hour in their long, just-waxed sedan will lose control and roll over the curb and get me!

I will have another, more specific biopsy on the 1st of February. It may find a malignancy. It may confirm the medico's suspicions. But, I am living life. I am wary. I am trusting in the Lord. I am enjoying the company of friends. I may listen to some Pink Floyd...Life is Good !